Mother's Day Apology

It is Mother's Day.  There is one mother I want to call.  It is Mother's Day - and I think she will empathize and understand.  I called Sylvia tonight and apologized.  I can't remember what I said to her the evening I received Jack's diagnosis - but I know I was wrong.  I remember it was a painful night.  I truly think I must have had a nervous breakdown.  I apologize and tell her how much I love my son and my daughter.  How much I want my family.  I apologize for my words and actions.  I am honest - I tell her that I am in an indescribable pain - I am praying for God to take away this grief.  She accepts my apologies and is kind to me.  She listens to my story and to my feelings and she doesn't tell me to feel otherwise.  She tells me to get some sleep.. that sleep will help me to be stronger.  And she is right - so goodnight.