Why did this happen?

I may never get the answers I want in regards to "Why?  Why did this happen to Jack?"

I do know some things:

First:  I had a healthy, full-term pregnancy.  I followed all the recommended advice for pregnant women.  Paul and I were healthy parents.
Second:  Jack was born - beautiful, strong and healthy.  I do not believe Jack was born with autism.
Third:  Jack was developing normaly, on schedule.... and then something happened.  Something went wrong? 

What?

I asked my doctors about vaccines.  I asked even while I was pregnant.  I was poo-pooed.  Told it was nothing to worry about. 

I wish I wouldn't have given Jack the vaccines.  Maybe people don't like to hear that.  But its true.  Knowing what I know now...  Understanding my family history, Paul's family history... I think I should have received better counseling from the medical community.  Yes - Jack's family has a history of immunity and neuoroligical disorders.  I think Jack could have had a predisposition... and once so many super strong vaccines hit his body before the age of 2.... Jack's health history took a turn.  I love my child so much - I would have done anything to have prevented this.

I wish I would have been counseled and would have known more about alternative vaccination schedules. 

I'm not the only one who thinks this.  Read the below thoughtful comments from Jenny McCarthy:

http://articles.cnn.com/2008-04-02/us/mccarthy.autsimtreatment_1_autism-evan-hannah-poling?_s=PM:US

Many people aren't aware that in the 1980s our children received only 10 vaccines by age 5, whereas today they are given 36 immunizations, most of them by age 2. With billions of pharmaceutical dollars, could it be possible that the vaccine program is becoming more of a profit engine then a means of prevention?

We believe autism is an environmental illness. Vaccines are not the only environmental trigger, but we do think they play a major role. If we are going to solve this problem and finally start to reverse the rate of autism, we need to consider changing the vaccine schedule, reducing the number of shots given and removing certain ingredients that could be toxic to some children.

We take into account that some children have reactions to medicines like penicillin, for example, yet when it comes to vaccines we are operating as if our kids have a universal tolerance for them. We are acting like ONE SIZE FITS ALL. That is, at the very least, a huge improbability.

Even if the CDC is not convinced of a link between vaccines and autism, changing the vaccine schedule should be seriously considered as a precautionary measure. (If you would like to see some ideas for alternative schedules, check out http://generationrescue.org.)

We wish to state, very clearly, that we are not against all vaccines, but we do believe there is strong evidence to suggest that some of the ingredients may be hazardous and that our children are being given too many, too soon!